I've been alone for thousands of consecutive days, how could tomorrow feel different.
I wouldnt even be aware of it if not for this thread.
In case you are alone tomorrow: Does it make you feel extra bad? I mean since lockdown in many countries you will probably not be outside and see happy couples doing couple things and get triggered.
I'm really indifferent. Of course I'm alone, but I can't say I will feel more alone tomorrow and be more grumpy. I don't feel I'm in a position to date or even have a relationship for many years now, because I've many other problems. I couldn't make someone happy, because I'm not happy.
So, who cares? :3
This isn’t so bad.
The worst Valentine’s I’ve had when I lived in a shared flat in college. My flatmate was dating and bought his bf along every damn weekend. St.V was special, they would make dinner, drink wine and fuck all night. Meanwhile I was sitting in the neighboring room shitposting on imageboards and sulking, listening for when they would stop dining in the common room so I could go take a piss in peace, without disturbing them.
Imagine a Finnish autist spergposting on Northpole, blasting music on his headphones while his flatmate is getting fucked in the next room. Hyvää vitun ystävänpäivää, saatana.
Reading Romanticist poems!
Herz, mein Herz, warum so fröhlich,
So voll Unruh und zerstreut,
Als käm über Berge selig
Schon die schöne Frühlingszeit?
Weil ein liebes Mädchen wieder
Herzlich an dein Herz sich drückt,
Schaust du fröhlich auf und nieder,
Erd und Himmel dich erquickt.
Und ich hab die Fenster offen,
Neu zieh in die Welt hinein
Altes Bangen, altes Hoffen!
Frühling, Frühling soll es sein!
Still kann ich hier nicht mehr bleiben,
Durch die Brust ein Singen irrt,
Doch zu licht ist's mir zum Schreiben,
Und ich bin so froh verwirrt.
Also schlendr' ich durch die Gassen,
Menschen gehen her und hin,
Weiß nicht, was ich tu und lasse,
Nur, daß ich so glücklich bin.
Heart, my heart, why so merry,
So full of restlessness and distraction,
As if over mountains blissfully
Already the lovely springtime?
Because a dear girl again
Presses warmly to your heart,
You look joyfully up and down,
Earth and sky you refreshed.
And I have the windows open,
I'll go out into the world again
Old fear, old hope!
Spring, spring it shall be!
I can no longer remain silent here,
Through my breast a singing wanders,
But it's too light for me to write,
And I am so happily confused.
So I stroll through the alleys,
People go hither and thither,
I don't know what to do or what not to do
Only that I am so happy.
I went for a date today. She looks cute, has education I like for women to have, young and she thinks that tiktok is degenerate.
The only thing that disturbs me is she has brown eyes. Not sure if I can live with that. KC destroyed my perception of genetic traits and made me too picky in terms of ethnicity.
There will be second date tho.
By the way, that girl had coroner recently. We had such a dialogue:
She: can I ask you a question?
Me: sure, what?
She: have you had covid?
Me: (thinking: fuck, she'll ask have I taken the vaccine) n-n-no, why do you ask?
She: well, I had it recently and still don't smell things
Me: fuck. No, I'm okay, thought you could be concerned I can infect you
She: nah, I'm okay with that
Me: no wonder. -_-
That's strange, because biology works the other way: blue eye color is represented by a recessive gene and normally it should be suppressed by the other colors.
However, it's possible to inherit blue eyes in that situation, too, but it's pure luck.
My mother, father and most of the relatives have blue eyes. Almost all my previous gfs have had blue eyes, except, maybe, the first one long time ago. It's hard to imagine someone as gf with brown ones by some reason.
I think so.
She was different than I expected from her profile. A bit more girl next door, more approachable, less model-tier. Very nice and cute, though. I feel we had a good connection and I enjoyed spending time with her. I also told a story with some sexual content and figured out she's not a prude. She asked questions and talked without me having to ask her, so the conversation was flowing naturally, which was also good.
I'm not good at determining whether girls are interested in me, so we will see if she felt the same way.
Thanks. I try to be :3
