Stop shitting over our threads virgin fuck. Go back to wizardchan.
Although the thread is still available in the catalog I couldn't reply to it since "thread sunk too deep". Sad and also why?
I attached the other thread text-only and for better understanding (mostly the outfit cleavage episode) the pictured version for the Bernds who are new to my blog.
Hier wir gehen:
So even though I've seen her for months now we've never talked about sexuality, because it doesn't play a role in my life other than masturbating sometimes, I don't deem it important, haven't brought it up and she never asked.
So last time I was talking about my dull, sober life I don't really enjoy (see the other thread about drug consumption) and gave thought about "why not start with substance x y z again in a controlled and sensible way?" and then she interrupted me, starting with "my I ask you a really intimate question?" I said sure, if I don't like the question I will just not answer.
Then she went on with "what role does sexuality play in your life?" and I was like "uhm? I don't see anyone or anything like that. So it doesn't really" (she knows that I live a hermit life) and then she continued with "what about masturbation? Do you masturbate?" And I said yeah, sure sometimes. But why do you ask?
While saying that I noticed how I got a little bit aroused and felt a small sensation in my penis, expecting a bulge I looked into my crotch for a moment (just a small bulge, barely noticeable for me) and might have also moved my arms so that I protected my crotch from her lustful glances (I mostly look on the floor when talking, because her eye contact confuses me occasionally, so I don't actually know if she looked at my crotch. But she probably noticed my behavior)
She replied something like "for some people that's some kind of important source of intensity in their life" or something like that.
And then I said I have more important issues (than _trying_ to get laid right now). Would you recommend me installing tinder or what? (As if doing that is not another great way for possible increasing depressiveness, right?)
I might have reacted a little bit butthurt, I'm not even totally sure why.
I just saw the possibility that she will annoy me by recommending magic tricks a la "just have sex!" in the future. Acting like having sex is just installing tinder and having a vagina - with her female bias and perspective and such. So if she recognized my butthurtness she will refrain from doing that?
Did she violate my boundaries by asking about me masturbating? Is this the continuing slippery slope of sexual transgression and boundary violations I'm seeing of her (and probably hoping for, wishfully thinking)?
What's her plan? What's next?
Also: we started reading the book a few weeks ago and continue doing so. Every session we talk about the stuff we read, but just for some minutes, usually extending the 50 minute sessions for some more minutes. 2 or three sessions ago she told me she really likes talking with me about the book. I like it too.
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Do you consume drugs? Which ones? How often/regularly? Do you have an6 problem with consuming?
After the last few years of being polytoxic and about 15 years of cannabis usage (half of my life) I'm sober from THC for over a year. No amphetamines for almost one and a half year, no coke for about 6 months and I haven't drunk alcohol since beginning of January.
Nothing in my life got anyhow better due to being sober. It feels like I lost my identity and the little bit of fun I had doing these things in the end. On the one hand I didn't like my high life in the end, it wasnt really fun, just an expensive habit that made things...less boring.
On the other hand I'm not sure why I haven't relapsed and don't really feel like doing it even though it obviously wouldn't change anything. , I can't say becoming sober was worth it. I got sold a lie by professionals and a supposedly 'easy' way out to reach a fulfilling life.
How can normies cope and bear their dull, sober life? Why do I think that everything those people strife for in life is just mindless, dull entertainment I can't be bothered with.
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The Dance of Zalongo refers to the mass suicide of women from Souli and their children during an invasion of Ottoman troops on December 16, 1803. The event is commemorated in Greece in the context of the Greek War of Independence. A number of 60 women were trapped near the village of Zalongo in Epirus, modern Greece, then Ottoman Empire and decided to turn towards the cliff's edge and die with their infants and children rather to submit to the Ottoman troops chasing them. According to tradition they did this one after the other while dancing and singing.
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EU is going down.
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I'm scared of what's going to happen in a decade. Not to mention I'm a 25 yo autisticel NEET with no skills, experience, friends, etc. I'm basically incredibly helpless and I can't do much. I don't know how to do anything useful. But I am aware of what will happen ahead and it's frightening to me.
I assume you all know what I might be chatting about.
So, Bernds, do you have a plan for this decade? Cuz I sure as hell don't.
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I've muddled with the idea of separating myself from my civic duty as a working taxpayer, to give myself a chance at deconditioning my subconscious in the eden of my choosing. But then would I ever accomplish much without the beneficial requirement of socialization in the middle of the woods? I'm unsure but at least I would be at peace from meddling cars blowing down the street at unknown speeds.
What book should I read?
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I think it's a crock of shit considering there's mutants among the guild and the Tiexelian ability to morph into any shape they so desired or their group's uncanny ability to revive dead humans with or without their previous consciousness.
I finishes Dune Messiah last night and felt it was missing the world building the first fitfully strived to push. The dialogue was ambiguous and lacked the page turning journey of the first. I'm glad Paul is dead. He's a mary sue and too easy to write for and rhat includes his spawn.
I do agree there's too many plot holes. Asimov is the better writer about ai, where as Herbert is the ecologist people were yearning for in his time.
