Bernd 2021-04-26 19:10:16 ⋅ 3w No. 113850
I can't take this lockdown anymore. For one entire year I did not mind it at all, but siddenly I feel so lonely every day. Around me there are many people in happy relationships, only I am alone. feelsbadman
Bernd 2021-04-26 19:39:48 ⋅ 3w No. 113851
Sames. I work on my scooter just to forget it. Yeah arbreit macht frei.
Bernd 2021-04-26 21:47:43 ⋅ 3w No. 113858
>>113857 Sames This weekend I built a crossbow from a little tree I removed from our garden. The video is not the final version, the bolts now have weights at the front so they fly in a straight line and the crossbow itself has a lot more power now.
Bernd 2021-04-27 04:29:07 ⋅ 3w No. 113859
>>113850 >Around me there are many people in happy relationships, only I am alone. is that a lockdown problem?
Bernd 2021-04-27 09:50:04 ⋅ 3w No. 113863
>>113859 normally I can find excuse to force myself around other people with lockdown I cannot such cases
Bernd 2021-04-27 10:03:12 ⋅ 3w No. 113864
>>113859 Yes. My only source of meeting women has always been the orchestra since I have light Berndism. Also, women there are usually of "good quality", haha. I play the violin since I am 6 or so.
Bernd 2021-04-27 16:37:53 ⋅ 3w No. 113877
>>113864 Play something for us! Also I feel lonely too, although I have 2 matches on tinder that don't look too bad but I don't know what to write, I feel like such a mess that has nothing to offer, although I have a job and even two or three frens, but I have never had a gf and I'm far north of 30 and my guitar playing never seems to get decent because I just don't have a song in my soul, so wtf can I do, pls hlp thx
Bernd 2021-04-27 20:23:51 ⋅ 3w No. 113887
>>113850 >For one entire year I did not mind it at all, but siddenly I feel so lonely every day. sames i just feel i'm getting rusty doing nothing
Bernd 2021-04-27 22:54:22 ⋅ 3w No. 113890
I am also alone.
TL;DR once the lockdown ends i want to escape berndomBernd 2021-04-27 23:18:01 ⋅ 3w No. 113891
>>113878 Sorry. I just did it once because I couldn't stop myself. After it I said sorry to my cherry tree several times and hugged it. >>113877 Hm, I might. I don't really have a lot of self confidence on the violine because there are so many pros, but I definitely can play. >>113887 Glad there are so many Bernds feeling the same as me. Once this lockdown ends I WILL go and change my life. I will make more friends irl and get a gf. No matter what. I'm so sick of myself just sitting in my room studying, shitposting, and playing games. Next door my brother is sleeping with his gf right now, while I am writing this. I'm 23, looking average or even better, upper middle class. What is holding me back is Berndism and a visual impairment. Sometimes my eyes do some weird little moves, and I can't look people in the eyes because of it because I was always afraid of them noticing it. My plan is to go to orchestras and maybe even some choirs and there I will hopefully meet some girls at my age that grew up with similar settis: - religious/traditional family - not rich, but wealthy - 100% germanic 14/88 family - say scheiße -> get soap in mouth **jk** There are actually a lot of them, I used to be friends with many of them while I went to the orchestra when I was a teen. Too bad I was always too shy to talk to them more than needed. Then I went to Japan, didn't touch my violin for a long time, became shit at it and started to hate on classical music like an edgy teenager and all my contacts were lost once I returned home. I spent the lockdown since June 2020 in an internet relationship with a girl who also suffers from Berndism. I actually had feelings for her because at some point it felt like she was just a female copy of me. However, recently I started to think that if she was german too, she probably wouldn't even have become friends with me. If I am wrong about this then I can never look in her eyes again (for even thinking about it) and if I am not, then this has to end as well, obviously. I have always made fun of people who were in internet relationships and now I learned the lesson myself, like the fool that I am. Whew... What an essay. Sleep well, Bernds.
Bernd 2021-04-28 04:38:04 ⋅ 2w No. 113894
>>113850 >For one entire year I did not mind it at all, but siddenly I feel so lonely every day. You can always share some banter with us bernd. We're always here
Bernd 2021-04-28 08:18:20 ⋅ 2w No. 113896
You will stay in your room You will enjoy immigrants flooding your country You will eat the bugs You will own nothing And you will enjoy it
Bernd 2021-04-28 08:35:44 ⋅ 2w No. 113897
>>113878 I was trying to make a holocaust yoge in response to your "arbreit macht frei" comment
Bernd 2021-04-28 12:16:41 ⋅ 2w No. 113899
>>113858 Tried to make some art. Last time I touched a painting brush was probably in elementary school. What do Bernds think? Pic 2 is the 2nd try, but I like the first one more.
Bernd 2021-04-28 12:37:52 ⋅ 2w No. 113902
>>113900 Come on, Deutschlandbernd bro, this can count as modern art!
Bernd 2021-04-28 12:45:29 ⋅ 2w No. 113905
>>113891 >However, recently I started to think that if she was german too, she probably wouldn't even have become friends with me. that's right, g*rman women are fucking disgusting creatures
Bernd 2021-04-28 13:46:00 ⋅ 2w No. 113909
>>113902 more like colour by numbers tier. But keep up your nice hobby.
Bernd 2021-04-28 20:48:46 ⋅ 2w No. 113915
>>113891 >However, recently I started to think that if she was german too, she probably wouldn't even have become friends with me what makes you think that?
Bernd 2021-04-28 23:53:14 ⋅ 2w No. 113917
>>113915 Because she is very poor (westslav) and I am rather successful. Easily within the top 5-10% of the german society in future once I work. Berndism has kept me away from women and I have never felt the emotion of "love" before. There I was never sure if what I felt really was love, and I always had the sorrow that she is probably just seeing at an escape tool to what she thinks is paradise life. If these complex caused thoughts are wrong, then I have no right to talk to her ever again because I would be so much lower on a human level compared to her for even thinking about this possibility, and if they are true then obviously I wouldn't ever want to be with her. Anyway, this morning I touched a painting brush for the first time since elementary school. My brother pressed and dried a hemp leaf last year and when he was about to put it in a frame on a white paper, I asked him why don't try to paint something on the background. We experimented a lot and ended up sprinkling red, yellow and blue watercolour on a sheet and then sluring it into wave-like patterns with a big, watered brush. Please name a price that this could be sold for at a modern art auction - I am very curious about your guesses. Pic 1 is trial 1, Pic 2 is the final result. **My guess: 420€**
Bernd 2021-04-29 05:43:47 ⋅ 2w No. 113928
>>113917 >Easily within the top 5-10% of the german society in future once I work Why is this place so full of autism?
Bernd 2021-04-29 05:49:24 ⋅ 2w No. 113929
Bernd 2021-04-29 06:54:21 ⋅ 2w No. 113931
>>113929 I have a lot of private connections and I'm good at IT, later this year I will start working at a great company where my father already works, everything is already settled. My post wasn't smth like these internet people bragging about their "muh 140IQ" on reddit or YouTube comments. I am full of insecurities and I am inexperienced in a lot of things in life, I omly explained my situation.
Bernd 2021-04-29 07:07:53 ⋅ 2w No. 113932
>>113931 So you start to work and will earn 3.440Euros/netto/month right away? That's the amount to be in the top 10% in Germany
OPBernd 2021-05-01 11:03:35 ⋅ 2w No. 113988
Today I will do a BBQ together with a bassist and a drummer, we will eat, jam and smoke weed until tomorrow. The bass player just bought pic3 related and we will try it out together. I post this because oj my search for coals, I found a bag of grilling briquets in my garage, which seems to be from Finland. I wonder who carried it all the way down to south Germany? Maybe my brother? I realised that having a good smoke once or twice a week really helps me to go through these times without losing motivation to be productive from loneliness and boredom. Yesterday I finally finished coding an app for guitar training, which I wanted to have finished in January already.
Bernd 2021-05-01 15:54:16 ⋅ 2w No. 113998
>>113988 I wanted to buy a vaporizer as a present, report on that one after you try it.
Bernd 2021-05-02 11:45:26 ⋅ 2w No. 114017
>>114016 Definitely worth its money if you smoke often and don't want to poison your lungs too much.
Bernd 2021-05-02 13:24:04 ⋅ 2w No. 114023
>>114021 3 days if I smoke a lot. I have a very low tolerance.
Bernd 2021-05-02 17:04:24 ⋅ 2w No. 114025
>>114023 Pretty good. I'm aware there's the capability to reuse the weed and form it into edibles.
Bernd 2021-05-02 18:58:20 ⋅ 2w No. 114030
>>114025 what a dumbass policy tbh, well over 99% of imageboarders have posted on 4chan